A sense of relief

These last few days have felt like a wirlwind. Monday we had the excitment of finding out we are having a boy. I always feel tired though after baby appointment because I am always afraid they are going to find something wrong with the baby. I was that way when I was pregnant with Kenzie as well. It really drains me emotionally. Well after our dr.'s appointment we hung out with Seth and Lindsey the rest of the day. Then yesterday we had the preacher and two other men come out to the house for dinner. So yesterday I spent most of the day cleaning and just getting ready for company. Today I feel as though I can finally recover from Monday and just relax. I love keeping busy though. Josh and I really want to get more involved in our church and I told Josh I really wouldn't mind being at the Church most nights if we were really getting involved but I just get so tired I dont know if I can handle that much extra. So we will have to just take things so and slowly begin to get invloved. Plus I really don't want to get burnt out. I really want us to get involved as much as we can while keeping our sanity. I am super pumped though to begin this new Bible Study on Thursday nights. On top of that we are planning on going to church on Wednesday nights when they begin a new Bible study there as well, we just dont want to start on the end of a Bible study. So there will be 2 nights that will be occupied by church. Then Josh also wants to start playing on Sunday mornings with a band, so they will probably have practice either wednesday after bible study or on tuesday. Like I said I really want this change to happen, we really need to get involved but I just hope I can find a way to get more energy with this pregnany, it seems the farther along I get the more tired I get as well.

"It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect."
-Psalms 18:32

It's a boy!!!

Yesterday we went to the Dr. and he informed us that we are pregnant with a little baby boy. Our name we have picked out is Elisha David and we will call him Eli. It is so incredible how amazing technology is these days. I was watching the 4-D ultrasound and I was just amazed. I kept thinking back to what Josh's cousin said to me once about how I have a hand in God's creation. I am protecting one of God's miracles. I just blows my mind that God would entrust me of all people with this amazing miracle and then I have to raise this human right in the ways of the Lord. Many people would be overwhelmed but I am just too honored to feel overwhelmed at this point. I just stand amazed that an actual human is inside me growing and how much love I already have for this little guy. When I look at the unconditional love I have for this little one and even Makenzie it automatically makes me think of the love God has for me. Kenzie is rotten at times but no matter what I love her and I would do anything for her. God's love can become a little more clearier when you have a child. You can really see just how amazing God is and exactly the kind of love He has for His children. I pray for little Eli right now that he comes into this world healthy and that he grows up to do great things for his Creator.

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart..."
-Jeremiah 1:5

So it is official

God has really outdone Himself this time. It is incredible to see how the hand of God works if you just put your faith in Him. I will start watching Gabe October 6th and we will watch him 3 days a week. It is perfect because I can still fit my dr appointments in and I will also have one day to clean the house without having Gabe there. Kenzie did great with me holding Gabe yesterday. Heather, his mom seemed so laid back and just relieved that she had someone to watch Gabe instead of sending him to a daycare. I think I may just watch one more child, the neighbor girl, and she will be part time as well. It is absolutely perfect how God worked out all the problems I thought I would have. He really does take care of us in our time of need and gives us exactly what we do need to make sure we can still do work for Him!

"And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work." -2 Corinthians 9:8

God is so good!

So yesterday God just reassured me that I was supposed to quite my job. I have had so many different job opportunities come my way. Kenzie, my daughter, and I are going to meet a little boy named Gabe today and we might start watching him from our home. I am excited to see hoe Kenzie will react to another child stealing mommy's attention. I am sure it will be a rough transition at first but I know she will she will adjust. I just know that God is going to bless our little family I just have to wait patiently and listen for His direction. I feel closer to God now than I ever have before. I can't wait to see the plans Hehas for this family start to take shape.

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven."
-Ecclesiastes 3:1

The start of something new... again

I am going to attempted to stay at home again. I had done it for the first year of my daughter's life and now I feel as though I should be doing it again. I just quite my job, a job that I hated and now I feel a little lost on what I am supposed to do next. I always thought I should work in the childcare industry but now that I have worked in a daycare that wasn't ran by my mother I see now that unless I start my own, I can never work at a daycare like my mother's again. I know I will never be happy at a job unless I can see my daughter the whole time. She is m pride and joy and I just know I cannot be happy unless I am at least in the same building. So that is why I came back home again. Our budget is going to be tighter than it has ever been before, I am going to have to pinch and save. My husband is going to have to take up a few jobs on the side but to be completely honest, I am super excited to see where God is going to lead us next. I got challenged this morning, I need to quite feeling sorry for my sorry self and do something about the poor, the widowed, the starving people in the world. So that is what my focus is going to be. I am going to focus on others and that is oing to be my new lifestyle!! Just something I do!