Baby will be here soon

So I went to the Dr on Monday and I scheduled my final ultrasound. Where has the time gone? With Kenzie my pregnangy took forever but with this one it is flying by. I can't believe November is going to be here next week. It is so crazy how fast time goes when you have a child. Kenzie is going to be 18 months old next week, what happened to my little baby? She is so much fun at this age though. I wouldn't trade it for the world. Anyways final ultrasound appoint is set for the first of December. Come January I will be going to the Dr every week and then baby Eli will be here in February. Man I have a lot to get done before Eli gets here. Getting more excited each day though!

Great birthday!

I had one of the worst days yesterday. I was pooped on by Gabe and then puked on. Kenzie was just clumsy yesterday and kept falling down. It was a day I thought would never end and then my wonderful husband comes home and he is just incredible. We had a relaxing night (as relaxing as you can get with a 17 month old). It was exactly what I wanted and needed after the day I had. This weekend though is when we will actually celebrate my birthday. Josh and I are going out and I am sure we will have a great time. Thanks for all the birthday wishes.

Balled my eyes out before 10 am

This morning I watched the most empowering movie. It's called "Why I wore lipstick to my mastectomy." The beginning was a little graphic it shows the lady going into a stip club and you see a lot of cleavage but the scene is necessary because it makes a big point in the movie. I can't even imagine losing a piece of my breast let alone the whole thing. I mean it is a piece of a woman's sexuality in our society however this movie just made me think of my husband. Right now I am pregnant and there is no way I am going to get all dressed up when I am so uncomfortable. I know without a shadow of a doubt that my husband would still find me beautiful whether I had one breat or none at all. If he can still look at me and be attractive why should I have a problem. I believe that every woman should know that the Lord is the exact same way. He thinks I am so beautiful just the way I am. He created me perfect in His sight. I think every woman should see this movie because if a woman couragous enough to go through breast cancer can still find the beauty in herself all of us other women shouldn't have a problem at all!

Hesitation

I am having a hard time trying to decide whether or not to get this stupid H1N1 vaccine. I have no clue what the side affect are going to be once there is a live vaccine inside me. I have read articles that have said there has been no actual testing on pregnant women at all. They are just assuming that it will have the same affect as the seasonal flu shot. They really have no clue what kind of reactions will come with this vaccine at all. I am just so hesitant because I am staying at home anyway and I am not exposed as much as people that work outside the home. I know I will be just as likely to get it though by simply going to walmart but still I just dont know if it is worth the risk. Sometimes I wish I could become a hobbit and never leave the house. Really unreasonable, I know, but still sometimes it sounds too good to be true!

But by the grace of God I am what I am

"But by the grace of God I am what I am" 1 Corinthians 15:10

God is so amazing. In my devos this morning I was reading from 1 Corinthians and I came across this verse and I was so overwhelmed. What an amazing God I have that cares this much for me that He cares this much for me to give grace. I just had to share this with everyone today because God blessed me with it this morning!

October is here!!

October is finally here. It is my favorite time of the year. Not only because my birthday is in October but I just love the weather. I have such fond memories of October. It was the month that Joshua and I started dating back in college. I love thinking about those days and this beautiful weather makes all the feelings come back again. I love thinking about those camping trips and those walks around campus we used to take. More than anything I love remembering our first date. If it weren't for Lindsey I probably wouldn't have gone on a date with that crazy Tinkler boy. I knew after that first date that Josh was the man I was going to marry. That God had placed us both at KCU to meet and fall in love. I just love October and all the memories that come with it!