temper, temper

So I don't know what is going on with me lately. I have been losing my temper too easily. It is driving me crazy. I get to frustrated at every little thing. I am not sure if it is the birth control I have switched to or if I am just too stressed out but I just loose it. I get ticked off at everything. I am also really dreading the drive to Indiana again. I hate that 5 hour drive. The kids are usually horrible and it just gets longer and longer each time. Oh well. Hopefully things will start to get better.

Lots of prayers today

I have so many thoughts and prayers running through my head today so I thought I would share the burden...
Seth and Lindsey, Jessica and Logan Martin, Kelli Cummins, Jesse Brown, Guyandotte Church of Christ, Stacy, Suzi and Carleigh Smith, Jason Leap, Josh and myself.

God is so good and I a praying for His will in each of these requests. Thank you Lord for the blessings we haven't seen yet and all the things you are going to do. You are AMAZING!

Ready for the weekend

Thursday's are a great day at the Tinkler house. On Thursday nights we get together with our great friends Tim and Amanda. We usually try to play cards or just socialize. While the adults are doing that, Kenzie and Eli get to go play with Jesse and Nate. This is such a good break for Josh and I to just have some adult interaction without the kids. We have an exciting weekend planned for this labor day weekend. We are going camping with Uncle Seth and Aunt Lindsey. I am so glad they are coming here for the weekend. I truly miss seeing them. Hopefully we will be seeing more of them! Pray for our little family. We are getting new neighbors and I need to have a good attitude about it all! Excited for the changes we are having in our lives!

Busy, busy!

Another Wednesday is here and almost gone. I had class this morning, three hours worth of classes. I just realized the other day just how much I am doing lately. I am take 12 hours of classes a week, working for Thirty-One, and being a stay-at-home mom, plus I still find time to do dishes, laundry, and keep the house clean. What a lot. I am praying God gives me the energy and the drive to get everything done that needs to get done. I am truly blessed to be able to do all of this!

Revive Me, Oh Lord

I have been blessed with the opportunity to go back to school completely free. All I have to pay for is text books. I am currently enrolled in 2 Bible classes, Wisdom Literature and Acts. The other classes are Ethics and Microeconomics. So I am technically a full time student again. While in these classes the Lord is really laying a lot on my heart. In Wisdom Lit we are talking about Job. How do I attend this class and not get my faith shaken. I know I should be striving to live for Christ, I know I need to be working harder and I feel these classes are showing me that even more. I am reading the Bible more and more, I have to for class. This is helping me read the Bible a little more too. These classes are making me want to learn more. The professors are helping as well. I feel God is using all of this to REVIVE ME. This I am so excited about. I feel like God is actually saying, "Are you ready to take that leap yet." I feel like taking classes was the leap I needed to take for now but I have to keep listening to God. I want to keep my ears open, I don't want to miss out on what God is trying to tell me. So I am really excited to see what comes next! For the first time I am actually excited to be living in Grayson again!

This man was blameless and upright; he feared God and shunned evil. 
--Job 1:2

Zumba

Just did my first day of Zumba. It is tough but I am hoping I can stick with it. Not really trying to loose weight just trying to get more active!!

My prayer

I can hear her saying,

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

My husband absolutely loves this song and I find it quite ironic. This is exactly what I am crying out to him. I feel so lonely. I have incredible friends and he is a great husband but I feel he is just going on through life with the cruse control on. Just getting by with what he has to do but not doing the extra stuff. I know I am guilty of the same with my relationship with God but I feel I need Josh to be my spiritual leader as well. I feel I am missing that. I am missing something and not sure what to do with this knowledge. I can only encourage him so much, I can't make him do anything. I am just stuck. All I can do is pray I guess. I guess I just need God to take over from here. Why didn't I think of this before. Why didn't I think to involve God in all of this.

Dear Lord,
I want to pray right now for my husband. I pray you can lead him to be a strong leader for this family. I pray you can make him spiritually fit. Help him grow closer to you and to just simply read your word everyday. This itself will help him tremendously. Help him find out what he needs to do to get closer to you. Thank you for putting him in my life but now I need your help, I need you help so much!
I love you Lord.

New Catalog

I just received my new Thirty-One catalogs today and I am super excited about where things are going to go from here. Last month I had an awesome month. I almost made $1,000 in parties making my paycheck just shy of $200. Not too bad for havin' girls' nights and showing off purses. The new products are beautiful. I love the new patterns and I love the new specials we have coming up. I have 4 parties to do next month and I possible have 2 new recruits. I am so excited about my business. It has been a slow start but I can feel it is going to begin to flourish. I am praying God continues to use me to bless other women and to use this business as a ministry for Him!!

Ready, set, wait... where do I go?

My husband and I have been really stuggling with where God want us to go. We feel like we are being pushed. We are supposed to find a new job or just a new place to live in general. My mother-in-law said she felt the push for 2 years before God actually called her to go. She said we should start going through all of our stuff and figure out what we can get rid of and start giving it away or something. We need to be ready to move if God calls us tomorrow to move. So that is what I have been doing. I have gone through mostly everything and we have quite a collection of stuff outside waiting for people to come a buy it. We have a carport type area where everything is sitting with price tags and such waiting to find a good home. I am praying that everything will be gone this weekend. I will be at a conference and I hope when I return it will be gone.

My verse of the day is from Klove... Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you. --1 Peter 5:7

Wednesday

I have been busy cleanng the kids' rooms again. It seems like a never ending job. I dont know why I ever think these kids need more stuff. The other day I saw the cutest outfit for Eli and, Josh said, "does he really need more clothes?" I thought yah he really doesnt have much. Well I now know that he doesn't need more clothes after cleaning his room. I was trying to figure out when I could book a party for a friend. She wanted it to be on a weekend and I was looking through my calendar and I am almost completely booked from now until the end of October! Praise God right! I cannot believe I have that many bookings already. I would really like to have two - three parties a week but I know I have to work my way up and get the word out about my amazing company! My new goal is to not focus n the money but to focus on havin a fun girl's night for women to just relax and enjoy no kids! I am SUPER excited about life right now!! God is good!

Conference Call

I had the privilege to hear Michael Bernoff speak last night in a conference call. One thing he said that really stood out was you have to grow yourself before you can begin to grow your company. So I thought about this... What can I begin to grow in my life that can benefit my business. So I decided I am going to begin learning how to become a better public speaker. That is my first goal. After that who knows what, but that is first. I really want this business to work not really to make money, that would always be a benefit but I also want to use this company to help grow not only my current relationships but also to create new ones as well. This is the beginning of my journey and I can't wait to share it with all of you!

4 months old

Little Eli is now 4 months old. We started feeding him cereal this week. He LOVES it. He didn't eat it very well for me but of course when daddy fed it to him, he loved it. He is already starting to roll a little. He will get from his back to his belly and then get stuck and cry for help. I cannot believe how fast he is growin up already. Kenzie is an amazing big sister that loves her little brother. I have been faced with a challenge from God this week. My eyes were opened to how many prayer requests I see on facebook and other places throughout my day and I realized that I saw them and I saw the need but I hardly ever prayed right then are there for them. SO I talked with God yesterday while doing dishes and asked him, "Lord, send me something that you want me to pray for. Whether it's something global or someone or anything at all." So yesterday I get this text from an odd number. And it tells me about this young girl that had a horrible tragedy happen to her and she needed prayers. So I text the person back and asked who it was because I had recently lost all my numbers and I had no clue who it was. When they answered back I had no clue who they were. I didn't even know this girl. I facebooked both of them and not one of my friends were friends with them. I was shocked and realized that God just wants me to pray for every single thing. I do stay at home with the kids and that gives me plently of opportunities to pray throughout my day. I am really excited to see God work through me. I just pray I can listen to Him more often!!

The humble will see their God at work and be glad. Let all who seek God's help be encouraged!
Psalm 69:32

One month old already

Today my little man is one month old. I cannot believe how fast this month has gone already. It seems like just yesterday we were driving to the hospital to be induced. I am truly blessed beyond measures to have two healthy and beautiful children. Kenzie is the greatest daughter a mother could ask for. She brings so much joy to this family. I was so worried about how she was going to react to the changes that were going to happen when we brought Eli home. She has done so well already. I am sure there are meltdowns to come but she has made this transition go so smoothly thus far. Josh and I have a crazy life ahead of us and I know that God will bring us though all the tough times. March is here already and I am sure if I blink it will be gone just as fast. Wish I could keep Kenzie and Eli this young and innocent forever but since I can't I pray I raise them right in the Lord!

Blah

So today it is cold and rainy in Kentucky and it just adds to the drearyness in the Tinkler house. Last night we got the call that Grammy passed away. She was ready to go home. I don't know how Josh is taking it. I knew him and grandpops were close but I have never heard about him and grammy. Josh was quiet this morning he wasn't moppy or anything he just seemed tired. This is the first time we have had to deal with death since we have been married. We were dating when his grandpops died and unfortunatly I was on my back from Mexico when he received the news. I have no clue how Josh deals with death or if I am making a big deal about nothing. I just pray that God helps me comfort him in whatever way he needs comforting. God has truely blessed me with the greatest husband!!

It's monday

Is is yet another Monday but this Monday is like no other. God has truely blessed me this morning with the presence of His joy! We started potty training Kenzie last week and she is already doing amazing. Last night she pooped in the potty!!!! This morning right after she woke up she went in the big potty and then again at around 11:00! She still goes potty in her diaper quite a bit but I know it will be a slow process. I am not expecting her to be potty trained over night, especially since we are starting out so young! When I tell people we are starting to potty train they just give me this look like it is impossible but I know with God's help Kenzie will be potty trained before we know it. She is growing so fast, I am watching her out of the corner of my eye as she tries to put my shoes on her feet. She gets them on and then tries to stand up. She falls of course but the fact that she is actually putting shoes on her own feet is just amazing. I can't wait to see how Elisha is going to turn out. Speaking of little Eli, I get to hear his little heartbeat today. I am leaving in about an hour and I am just so excited to hear the little man pounding on my from the inside. He is going to be a rowdy one. He kicks all the time. Last night I was laying there in bed and he kicks his foot out and just sticks it there, those kicks are the most painful, but the most precious gift of pregnancy. I love feeling the presence of a little one inside, it just makes me more in awe of God's love for us and His limitless power. God is so amazing! Keep little Eli and myself in your prayers as we are finally in the third trimester. This is where it gets rough and patience grow thin. I am so ready to hold little Eli in my arms but God's time will come! God bless!

"The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song." -Psalm 28:7

Half way through November already

I cannot believe November is half-way through and Thanksgiving is just next week. It seems like just yesterday it was nice enough to run around with shirts and shorts on but now we have to bundle up already. I am super excited about Thanksgiving this year. I am excited to see my family and for them all to see how much Kenzie has grown. I am excited to eat lots of food too. Being pregnant and having a big appetite is a major plus this time of year. I am also excited because Josh and I are going to venture out for the first time on black friday. We really need a tv and so we decided that we will go out on black friday and find us a new tv. Our anniversary is Tuesday and I have big plans for Josh and I. It is so hard to keep things from the person you tell everything to. Completely off subject, God has presented me with many questions this morning and we I am not sure if it is God really or Satan. I know that these questions will only strengthen my faith in God. I just want to be listening to the right Spirit instead of the wrong one. These questions I will have to face with Josh and God. I just know that whatever I decide in this kind of decision God will be pleased but I want to figure out exactly what God's Word says about the matter. Just pray for me these next few weeks and I begin to dig in deeper to God's Word. I am super excited to see where this study is going to lead me. I am so happy that God is giving me something to dive into and search for my own answer!

Can't wait for baby Eli to get here!!
1John 4:1
"Dear friends, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because man false prophets have gone out into the world ..."

Baby will be here soon

So I went to the Dr on Monday and I scheduled my final ultrasound. Where has the time gone? With Kenzie my pregnangy took forever but with this one it is flying by. I can't believe November is going to be here next week. It is so crazy how fast time goes when you have a child. Kenzie is going to be 18 months old next week, what happened to my little baby? She is so much fun at this age though. I wouldn't trade it for the world. Anyways final ultrasound appoint is set for the first of December. Come January I will be going to the Dr every week and then baby Eli will be here in February. Man I have a lot to get done before Eli gets here. Getting more excited each day though!

Great birthday!

I had one of the worst days yesterday. I was pooped on by Gabe and then puked on. Kenzie was just clumsy yesterday and kept falling down. It was a day I thought would never end and then my wonderful husband comes home and he is just incredible. We had a relaxing night (as relaxing as you can get with a 17 month old). It was exactly what I wanted and needed after the day I had. This weekend though is when we will actually celebrate my birthday. Josh and I are going out and I am sure we will have a great time. Thanks for all the birthday wishes.

Balled my eyes out before 10 am

This morning I watched the most empowering movie. It's called "Why I wore lipstick to my mastectomy." The beginning was a little graphic it shows the lady going into a stip club and you see a lot of cleavage but the scene is necessary because it makes a big point in the movie. I can't even imagine losing a piece of my breast let alone the whole thing. I mean it is a piece of a woman's sexuality in our society however this movie just made me think of my husband. Right now I am pregnant and there is no way I am going to get all dressed up when I am so uncomfortable. I know without a shadow of a doubt that my husband would still find me beautiful whether I had one breat or none at all. If he can still look at me and be attractive why should I have a problem. I believe that every woman should know that the Lord is the exact same way. He thinks I am so beautiful just the way I am. He created me perfect in His sight. I think every woman should see this movie because if a woman couragous enough to go through breast cancer can still find the beauty in herself all of us other women shouldn't have a problem at all!

Hesitation

I am having a hard time trying to decide whether or not to get this stupid H1N1 vaccine. I have no clue what the side affect are going to be once there is a live vaccine inside me. I have read articles that have said there has been no actual testing on pregnant women at all. They are just assuming that it will have the same affect as the seasonal flu shot. They really have no clue what kind of reactions will come with this vaccine at all. I am just so hesitant because I am staying at home anyway and I am not exposed as much as people that work outside the home. I know I will be just as likely to get it though by simply going to walmart but still I just dont know if it is worth the risk. Sometimes I wish I could become a hobbit and never leave the house. Really unreasonable, I know, but still sometimes it sounds too good to be true!